Not Knowing

Summer is zooming by unmercifully. I can't help but think about all the new challenges I will have with school, and all that lies ahead. I've really enjoyed being away at college. This will be my second year here. With that said, I still have no idea what I'm doing. I'm taking all these classes, but what are they for? What will I be doing with all this random knowledge I've attained?

It just makes me nervous to think about life after school. Don't get me wrong, I'm looking forward to the freedom I'll have. It's just that I don't know what I want to be doing for a career. I want to be seen as successful, as someone who has it all together. It's just overwhelming to think about what I have to do to accomplish this.

Sometimes, I just want to say, "screw it," and just learn about something I love and do something I love with it without thinking about all the money that I'll lose out on.

Sometimes, I wish that someone could just tell me what to do, just to make my life easier. But then I wonder...what if what I'm supposed to be doing is not knowing. what the hell I'm supposed to do.

-Holly